Archive for October 2012

The Phases of My Grief

A week ago today, I was sitting in the hospital having just learned that my baby boy was about to pass away.  Seeing him hooked to all those tubes and watching his body slowly die was by far the most traumatic thing I have ever seen in my entire life.  We buried him a few…

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Saying Goodbye

Baby Boy’s name is Prince.  We had Prince’s funeral tonight.  I still feel very numb.  I wasn’t sure how I would feel about seeing him in the casket, but I am very glad I made the decision to do so.  I went in alone at first.  I read him his favorite book, “Oh Baby, Go…

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Sick of the questions

I know that people mean well when they ask me if I am ok, but I also know that when they ask that they don’t really want the real answer.  It used to slightly annoy me when I would walk through the halls at work and people would ask how I was doing and expected…

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The Grief Process

I have heard people tell me that when grieving for someone you love, you have to take it one day at a time.  Today, I was trying to take it one second or minute at a time.  Some people might wonder why I am still writing through all of this tragedy, but to me its…

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Karma is an Angry, Scorned Woman – Watch out Psychopath

Tonight I received a letter from a woman who reads my blog.  She told me that she has been in a Custody War with her psychopath ex for eight years.  She has been through countless hearings and has suffered from both physical abuse at the hands of the psychopath and legal abuse from the courts.…

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Society Blames the Victim Instead of the Psychopath

I am not sure why I am still shocked when people choose to blame the psychopath’s victim.  I have heard that this is normal from others who have suffered from an encounter with psychopath, but I still get a shock each time it happens to me.  From friends, to family, to the courts, to complete…

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Psychopaths Create Smoke and Clouds in Court and in Life

During one of the Custody Battles in the Custody War with Luc (my spath ex), the judge said, “There is a lot of smoke in this case and a lot of clouds…and its clouding my vision horribly.”  The judge went on to note that Luc hadn’t presented any evidence indicating who he was and all…

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